Can somebody please make it so I don’t have to do stuff anymore?
Almost all the accomplishments I can claim I’ve completed were not always fun in the doing of them. You know, stuff that’s worth doing is just plain hard sometimes. Like pulling teeth, like dragging yourself kicking a screaming, telling yourself to produce something even if its shitty, hating it…to hopefully one day look back and say, hey! Glad I did that. Made some good stuff too and learned a lot in the process. I hope I remember this when I am out of grad school. You really can’t let enjoyment be the only factor when deciding if you should keep moving forward with a goal: sometimes you have to keep your nose to the grind and do something that’s hard but worthwhile. Because right now, I hate this. But I won’t regret it. So that’s my lesson learned today: sometimes even following your passion feels like tedious, insufferable work. I hope feeling burned out in post-university life doesn’t derail me from my true path when I don’t have institutional deadlines keeping me pulling teeth.
These wise words from my husband and repeated by my good friend, Adria, are keeping me going:
“You just gotta Jim Morrison that shit. Break on through to the other side!”